Comfort of Fullness – yellow day continued

I got off of work last night at 8:30 pm. I hadn’t had dinner yet. I ransacked the kitchen as if the kitchen stole from me. I gobbled and gobbled until I felt really full. I realized, I felt a type of comfort feeling full. It was strange. Sometimes I don’t know what to do…

Finances & Roadmap

I updated my finances. I do this often to make sure I stay above water until I get a full-time job. Watching the amount of money I have in my bank reduce month to month without income is a bit nerve racking – but, it’s what I knew would happen and I know I can…

This week may be a week of many – up 3 lbs.

Remember that half bag of kettle chips that I ate? Well – it was just the tip of the ice berg for this week. I am up 3 lbs. The do’s I am not proud of this week: no workouts since last Saturday intake of Chinese food, chips, soda, ice cream, and candy Thursday no…

The Good, The Bad, The Update

The Good: I figured out how to set up a Domain (purchased VienHuynh.com for a buck and some change), set up Hosting (for free at Byethost), got Filezilla up and running, and got LoreIpsum.com up and running with the Barnes and Noble test page I’ve been doing. The feeling: I feel pretty accomplished by doing…

I learned

Learning can be overwhelming   it’s a constant state of confusion   I promise to stay determined but I do have a confession I’m scared I’ll never get it I can’t build my strength up and go I’ll be stuck in a state of lostness while others around me grow   But I know I am smart enough to reach what…

I ate half a bag of kettle chips

last night. In my head, I thought: “This is so good” “It’s been so long since I’ve downed this much chip” “nom nom nom”. “I shouldn’t be eating all this chip.” “What if this derails me from my goal” I feel guilty. I went to bed feeling guilty. I woke up with that weight of…

Commitment

Rule Book for Achieving goal Commitment Follow through with my plans – climb each and every step it takes to get there no how tired I feel and how much of a struggle it is at the moment. Determination These are the thoughts and feelings that pike up now and then within me. It’s the voice that…

Decisions update

I’ve decided I’m going to dive into Front-end Development. Pros: – I can start learning on my own now – It’s a lucrative career – I can work from home when needed or find a remote position – It’s something hands on and is pretty stinking cool – It’s a field that requires growth and…

Down 11 lbs.

Switching up my workouts have helped me keep consistent. There are days that I don’t want to work out at all in the morning. They’ve been more frequent now for some reason. What keeps me going is the belief that what I want and what I need to do to feel accomplished are two different…

Stronger

I started eating “better” and increasing working out November 30th. Starting out: I felt heavy and tired I didn’t want to do a whole lot of social activities I didn’t like lifting weights I didn’t like circuits I ran/walked slowly January 6th (7 weeks since starting) I feel healthier More conscious of what I’m eating I…

Why all the pressure?

I was just thinking – I am now 25 for 1  more month. If I learn any skills, it will be “workable” by the time I’m 30. Which means I have 30 years to devote to. That’s not a lot of time. Heck, I’m already 30! So that’d be just the time-frame it took from…

Doubt

  If at first I don’t succeed I give up and recede I lock into a pattern   Imprisoned as Saturn     Hopeful as the Titanic Majestic but so tragic