Waiting for Mr. Right

I’ve been working out hard, losing my self to the idea that I needed to prep myself for the next meet up with my ex, who I realize I’m still in love with, and the Mr. Right that will poof out of thin air. I’ve been going out more to increase my chances of meeting…

Rejections

Hello you. It’s been a while since I’ve updated you on my life, and a while since I’ve used writing to figure things out. I want to write this morning to feel better, not that I feel incredibly shitty – at least not yet. That’s where you come in! To stop me from falling on…

Truth of Last Night

So I did drunk text my ex last night. I did feel desperate to get away. And I had an alright time with my girls. I threw up at the first bar we went to because I didn’t eat enough before going out. It was a terrible feeling. I didn’t enjoy myself because my head…

The Guilty Update

I haven’t been updating the blog because I haven’t been exactly proud of myself. I’ve been desperate…embarrassingly so. Towards my ex that is. Yes, THE ex, the one I wrote The Host about. The one that I swore I would never let back in to do any more damage. Well…I let him back in. The first night…

Doing bad feeling good

Is it bad to let go of a relationship that felt pure on paper? Is it bad to hook up with your first boyfriend because you needed release and its been a while? Is it bad to daydream about your best friends older brother who you’ve had a fling with? Who’s now single? Is it…