Updates

Love Lately I’ve been feeling above the depression line. It’s due to the fact that I’ve been doing Yoga and Jiu Jitsu, eating well and normal. I feel attractive, yet I hold on to the belief that I don’t have the personality for someone who I really am attracted to, to be attracted to me on…

Day 26 of January, in 2017

So Ju Jitsu has been a good experience so far. I’ve done two classes. The first class I was the only girl, the second class I got to practice with a couple girls. I enjoyed doing it with girls because I don’t think too much about anything other than what I’m doing. Although, the first…

Wednesday, the 18th of January

Priorities: Today I have a clearer sense of clarity. Monday and Tuesday I was lost in a state of being overwhelmed by too many tasks items without priorities assigned to them. Today, I’ve learned through talking to different people and watching a couple of YouTube videos how to priorities these items. I had to do…

23rd of January, Year 2017

I am more aware of my weaknesses in terms of work. To operate without stress, I need guidelines and processes in place. I can look at it differently. Perhaps my inability to operate without one can be a motivator for putting in place one. Everyone needs direction, it’s the reason I left 40Digits. I didn’t…

Decisions Made

I’m moving out on my own once this lease is up. That’s in 6 months plus a week. It will be my first time really on my own. I’ll be 27. The place will be near downtown KC. I am happy I’ve made the decision and am ready for it. I’m ready to really know…

20th Day of January, 2017

Carly is asking me about MSF output. She thinks I’m not working enough. I think this because I know I’ve slacked a few days. Rethinking: I have no idea what Carly is thinking or planning in asking me about my output. This could actually help give me better direction, if she thinks I don’t do…

Day 19 of the Month January, Year 2017

Hello Hello. Since 8am, I worked on Alex’s music site. I cannot get the shipping cost to show up on the checkout page, nor can I get it to add to the total for some ridiculous reason. I took a mental break and am starting work. It’s noon – so it’s about time. I felt…

Tuesday, the 17th of 2017 – Anxious Thoughts

When I ask questions I feel I should already know the answers to, I hear my sister’s frustration in my ear. Her impatiently telling me to scoot aside so she can do it herself. Her irritation at my incompetence. It wasn’t right of her to treat me like that. I am smart and capable, I…

My Choice is to STOP

Last night I binge. Oh, I binged so good. I had half a bag of family sized ruffles, chicken, nuggets, fries, coke, food, food, and more food! I ate till I forgot about my stress of the day. And boy was I stressed. I have so much work to do and the music website has…

Sleep is for the Dreamer

Getting good rest has proven itself to be a difference between a productive day and an unproductive day for me. Last week, Chester and Cheeto have woken me almost every night between 2 and 4 a.m. I am a very light sleeper and getting back to sleep is even more of a challenge. This weekend…

This is Important

I can feel myself slipping into a depressive cycle. And I know exactly what the triggers are, so I must write about it. I am getting annoyed of my roommates, perhaps they are the victims of my PMS feels or perhaps I have a right to feel the way I feel. I became annoyed when…

Still Groovy

Ello, It’s mid-afternoon on a Thursday and I am free from work. I started real early today – 4 am! Only because I couldn’t get back to sleep. This is a great perk about my job, I can start when I want to. It was a bit hectic today as the company rolled out a…