The Continual Pursuit of Happiness

Alright. Last night, I binged. I surely did. I was happy with my abs coming through the entire day yesterday and then, BOOM, the night came and I found myself in the kitchen. Like a racoon, I was scavenging for food. I ate everything from 2 chicken sausages with squash spaghetti, half a stack of…

Ted Talk (Happiness) & Nutrition

Ted Talk: Our mind is like a balloon blowing in the wind. Our happiness is affected by external things. If things don’t go our way, then our happiness disappears. As long as our reasons for why we have a good day are lists of external conditions then we’re not going to have the stable happiness…

Thoughts

Where do thoughts come from? Where do feelings come from? The good, the bad, and the ego? Thoughts affect the ego. I think, I’m falling behind compared to others.. but where is the thought where I actually compare myself to others come from? Is it fear? Fear that I’m not as good as others? But then where…

Moods

Something I know about myself is that my mood sometimes is adjusted by how I feel others think about me. Like today… I feel I reached out to my old boss but it went no where, wanted to get lunch with him and them, but because he didn’t offer it, I felt almost rejected. Which…

Vegas Diaries

Vegas was absolutely….over the top. The bosses went above and beyond for us. Put us in the Wynn hotel, rented a suite at the Palms for Friday night mingling, rented party buses, rented spots at the pool, paid for us to go to shows…it was immaculate and oh so tempting to get attached to. I…

Sickly Decisions

I’m feeling under the weather. I wonder if it has anything to do with the overly ripe strawberries I ate without washing… it can’t be the vitamins I’ve been taking! No way.. I refuse to believe it… I’m done with work and am at a stand still. I feel like I need to take the dogs to the…

Work Niche So I Don’t Forget

I would like to request to be responsible for about 3 slots where I can continue to write for & release random ideas that come to mind. I could be of value for slots that are being constantly sent to MSF since what I’m writing isn’t cookie cutter. I will keep track of what’s working…

Good Resources for a Rainy Day

Depression & Nutrition This video encouraged my daily habit of taking vitamins. Specifically, this video discusses the benefits of a vitamin called Niacin (Vitamin B3) for depression. Since I started on Saturday, I feel a sense of mental clarity, different from the cloudy sensations I was having during that time. In all, I am taking:…

2 Steps Forward

I watched a meditation video with my mom Sunday, reluctantly. I felt my stomach churn and turn, I think it was engrained reactions from back in the day, when she use to make me do things I didn’t want to do such as go to Temple. Still I sat and watched and challenged myself to…

Is This My Life?

Hello darkness, my old friend… Yesterday everything was great until my roommates came home. One of them gives me anxiety because of her personality changes from me and her sister and best friend. With me, I feel she isn’t her true self, while she teases her best friend and sister. I can’t be myself because…

Vitamins Are Vital

My god how have I gone so long without taking vitamins at all? Yesterday I was motivated to purchase vitamins through research about how it can help with depression. I went to Hyvee and purchased: D3 – Absorbs calcium and promotes bone growth. increases levels of dopamine & seratonin B12 – low levels are linked…

Medication, Meditation, & Binge Eating

Fluoxetine & Other medication: This is a generic drug for Prozac. My practitioner prescribed me this after I paid her a visit for hormonal check. She diagnosed me with PMDD and knowing that I binge ate too she quickly said this medication will help. I am the skeptical type but I didn’t want to suffer anymore so…