Quick Updates

Some points of this post: Back to Free Eating The Secret is Out – Erin Knows The Need to be Perfect Binging as Unwinding Smile Direct Club My Default is Dirty Team Growth = Personal Growth PHP Learning Back to Free Eating: Last night I binged. Today, I realized I trailed off a bit from…

Negativity + Awareness + Humility = Growth 

Some days I love myself. I am confident, I feel beautiful inside and out, I feel like a good person overall. Some days, like today, I feel really down about myself. Like dominoes, one occurrence perceived as negative leads to another, until I am bashing my character and my intent at the end of the…

Life Changes – The Big Move

To move to California or to move into a downtown apartment with Hana. That is the question of the next 3 months. Our lease is up July 31st, and I was set on option #2, but something triggered the California dream once more today. I was walking on the track at my gym, just leisurely….

Lessons Learned from Yesterday’s Splurge

What went well yesterday: I was really productive at work and am doing a good job at managing my workload/time I ate when I was hungry and stopped when I was full I walked because I wanted to move and had nothing else I wanted to do I walked with pups in the morning I…

Not Doing Anything

Sitting silently situated on a couch I am defiantly doing nothing now I use to ache for action and excitement But now I yearn for peace & enlightenment I hear your purpose is slow to come Purpose is purposely different for everyone The world would be bland if we were all the same Yet ironically…

WENTI + Recovery Update

WENTI Walk in the morning Eat what’s there No food is bad Talk isn’t stary I am enough Walk in the Morning: Cheeto and Chester needs their exercises each day. Cheeto, especially needs his arthritic back legs to be exercised. I need to get my blood going first thing in the morning. I added in…

Day 1 of Freedom Eating

I’ve been eating what I want, and snacking when I feel like it. Although I do this, it is not guilt free. I still get the feeling that I need to eat better tomorrow to not gain weight. But, I’m not going to. I’m going to continue what I’m doing. Cravings can be controlled and…

What You Resist, Persists

I lose myself in food because I hated who I was by about 7th grade onward. This is an open letter to no one and everyone: I was never bullied. I didn’t get hit or ostracized. Marks weren’t left on my body, but bruises and scratches were committed on my self worth and body image. My…

Hello Diary, My Old Friend

I’m here to speak with you again…. What Went Well Yesterday: I volunteered to design a newsletter for TAG slog & it turned out pleasant New work at work gives me excitement, makes me realize I don’t like repetitive work Went to no gi BJJ training for the first time and it was fun, I’m…

Gratitude & Other Items

What went well yesterday: I got to see Leighann and her friends + Tyler for lunch at an Indian buffet across from Zona Rosa. I had some good laughs with everyone. The food was great. I didn’t over eat too much I got to see Erin over dinner and caught up with her I worked…

Bloat Be Gone

Yesterday was a challenge not binging. I watched a few videos of people addressing binge eating and here are some helpful tips that I am starting: Mark Hyman, MD (YouTube)Mark Hyman, MD (YouTube) Get educated: Insulin – sugar hormone Leptin – affected by sugar, gets broken by it Ghrelin – hunger hormone Peptide YY –…

I Got it From My Daddy

My parents are divorcing – is what my mom last said. I am not sure if they will follow through. It’s something my mom wants, but not my dad. In my heart, I knew they should have separated a decade ago, but I guess the timing wasn’t right. Now, the black dye has fallen into…